Thursday, December 16, 2004

Uniform folded, Boots kiwi-ed, hair cut, spirits diminished? Yea, my first reservist call back tomolo till Friday. Need to wake up at 4.30am tomolo and catch the first bus and train to CCK -_-. Suddenly, i feel so old, like im the only one, most of my friends haven have theirs yet, good for them. Something like this in the middle of the holidays, really demoralising. Sudden change of routine, remembering the unhappy times back den, which is over but still, a scar in my mind. Not oni me, but my other army mates as well. The difference in treatment, organisation, everything, u question urself where is fairness. Fairness is nothing but an object manipulated by the powerful. We can only just use wat we have and salvage any drop of righteousness from the treatment we recieve and hope that it'll be enough to keep us sane, to help us survive, to see the sky tomorrow and everyday.

Yea, i can say more and in details, but theres too much, im afraid of bashing up my computer in the process. NO! peace, no violence, no war, no bloodshed. Taking it in my stride, just treat this as doing something for my country and loved ones.


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